Here I sit at Camp CCJ, except this camp is not like other summer camps.  You see, this is a camp for those of us who just can’t get their lives together.

Here we wear red jump suits or orange scrubs and badges with our names instead of shorts and swimsuits.  Our counselors are lovely men and women who wear brown uniforms with their names.  They don’t run any fun groups, they just watch us real close.

You must make your bed or receive 48 hours locked in for not doing it.

The food is nothing to write home about unless you are begging your mom to make your favorite meal when you leave camp.

To get in here, to visit, you must be early and you must be dressed appropriately or our you go.  You want to call home, but your loved one must put lots of money on an account or no such luck.  No hugs or special rewards here for a job well done.  Oh, wait – we did get ice cream because we won the cleanest pod (cell block) award on inspection day.

Each day I wonder how many newbies will come join me at camp o will I get a bunk mate?  I have not been that lucky here at Camp CCJ.

I’m ready for this session of camp to end.

Love,

Dolphin

Dear Circle,

Thanks for the letter.  It was very uplifting.  I will be back out soon, although I prefer my P.O. doesn’t know; I really don’t want to see her until Wednesday check in, although I’m probably going to call her when I get out, as it’s the right thing to do.  Ugh… she really didn’t have to have me arrested, but, I kinda knew she would.  She’s very by the book.  Not good!

So, I can’t wait to see you guys!  I took a thirty day set back.  I wasn’t even able to get to court til, like, 18 days in, so I figured what was another week at that point.  This time has been good for reflection.  I have to remain clean or I will end up doing the rest of the year hanging over my head.  And, I would really prefer not to do that.  I’ll have 8 months left when I get out.  I’ve got to get myself locked on to the right path.  I’m ecstatic to be finally fully clean from suboxone.  I never realized how tough it could be coming off of it.

I hope this letter finds you doing well; I miss you guys (and Bella) terribly.  Can’t wait to see everyone!

One love,

Kosmo

PS. As for Dafa: to be always truthful, compassionate and to have tolerance in our hearts and actions for all of God’s creations.  To do this in the face of adversity, to stick to the principle of the universe – zhen, shan, ren – is to cultivate our true character, our “shing shing.” This is what is truly correct for our truth in the nature of the cosmos!  This is cultivation!  Love, K.

Hey, Circle, how is everyone doing?  I am good, besides being in jail.  So, I’m single, have four kids; I only see my oldest son who is 15 now.  I love animals.  I am in jail because of my ex: he hit me, so I hit him back and now I have a domestic violence charge.  I don’t have any pictures of me in here but I would love some pictures of the members of Circle and the animals, if you guys don’t mind.  I am 29 years old.

Me and my family don’t really talk – they disowned me because of my ex – they said I could do better.

I like being outdoors and the water, four-wheeling, snowmobiling, cooking, reading and writing poetry.  When I get out I’ll be living at the Oxford Shelter, because I will be homeless again.  It sucks but it happens.  I don’t know how long I’m in for; I go to court at the end of the month, so I’m hopeful that I”ll know something.  I haven’t even been sentenced and I’ve been here for 101 days today!

Anyway, looking forward to hearing back from you guys and getting some pix.

Love and rockets,

Linda Knox

Hey old pals.  Hope that all is well with you guys.  Not sure if circle got my first letter, but now I have the correct address; this one will get to you guys.  Funny how life works that you meet people in not so nice places that know someone you know.  Anyway, I’m glad it was Circle, because honestly, I was just thinking about the Project.  So, I am on the vacation of a lifetime – lol – not as YCJ -York County Jail sucks.  Here until August 23rd, then out for a few months, then back for another 110 days.

Me and some men do not mix well with each other, so here I sit in time out in Pumpkin land.

How are Circles going?  Did Rage ever finish what he was writing when you guys were asking me about places in Biddeford to hold Circles at? [Dolphin refers to the historical narrative of the non-profit forms, the answer which is yes.]

I see on the news they want to close the overflow shelter at the Preb.  Makes me sad and sick at the same time that our damn governor wants to cut everything in Portland.  He is nothing but a damn bully and a disgrace.

I spend a lot of time reading in here and staying in my cell.  A lot of addicts in here hwho talk about using and it bothers me that there is no support for them in a damn county jail.  Heck, it bothers me that I am back here after doing so well on the outside.

Jail sucks.  Big time.  That, some of you know from your own experiences.

Any more front page stories for Rage?

Not much to write at this point; again, I leave her eon August 23rd, so, pretty excited about that.

Be well, be safe.  Peace and love,

Dolphin

Circle,

Boy this place is getting bad, none of the officers are on the right page.  They gave me another roommate and she’s a little bitch.  She’s young.  She’s got her own t.v. and she won’t put it on the table so that I can see it.  So now I have a roommate that has a t.v. I can’t get a loaner.  This place is turning into a joke, they only build you up so they can bring you down.  They don’t solve anything at these town meetings.  It’s just a wrap session.  They never seem (staff, unit manager) to agree to anything.

I’m going to two A.A. meetings a week that my sponsor does. I’m on step four.

Maybe if you guys would like, I’d bus down and spend the weekend with you guys and go to meetings and Circles.  I’m going to be going to a lot of meetings, and doing counseling.  I don’t want to end up back, I have a lot of time hanging; nine years, four years of probation.  So I’ve really got to buckle down.  I like bow these women only go to the meetings, bi8ble study, just for the check mark.  I go to claim my seat and plus, I’m an alcoholic!

The ladies are having a hissy fit because when commissary came there was no cigs.  Circle, I don’t mean or want to sound like I’m begging, but could you guys please send me some  money? I really need hygiene.  I don’t like using Bob Barker toothpaste, deo, soap.

Boy am I tired.  I think I’ve only slept one night as long as I’ve been in.  I get up once a night, but if I”m up twice I have a hard time getting in gear in the morning.

I guess that the cook is going to go a long with a ham boiled dinner, tonight.  I think that the women here will enjoy that.

Miss Linda

misslinda

Hey, Circle.

What’s poppin’?

As far as me ever getting out, I’m currently waiting on the judge to make a post-conviction ruling.  Well, God will let me out when he wants to and not a second before.  I’m okay with that.  Don’t get it fucked up: I want to be out, a.s.a.p., but I trust God.  He has a perfect plan for me.

As I am,

Prince

prince


,

Fuck I just keep praying my appeal goes real good for yes Phil and Rob still say they don’t care about what happens for they are free. So show is the group going? I guess you could say I keep you guys on my mind a lot plus the minutes for yes I really could pray I would be able to get back to you guys for hell I know I did nothing wrong.

You know you guys can send me pictures if you have on time you can use a service called foto pigeon you can send pictures from your cell phone or Facebook (lol). I want you guys to know I did like the cards you guys sent, and yes you can tell Dark Star she can write anytime.

Love,

Father Dudley

joel

All I do in here is read, listen to music and sleep. This food sucks in here. I am going to be staying at Oxford Street Shelter when I get out of here which sucks but I have to do it. So what kind of dog do you have? Can you if you even write back to me send me a picture of you and the dog. I miss having people to write to and talk to. Do you have a house phone that I could call and talk to you on if so send me the number? I hope you don’t think I am crazy I just need someone to talk to write to going to read and then bed ttyl

Love Always,

Linda

Hey, hey, old friends.

It’s Dolphin, here.  My, my, it’s been a minute since we’ve all chatted and my life was going good, but there’s been a snag in the line.  I ended up picking up a new domestic violence charge.  I’m doing 110 days here at YCJ and have been here since May 12.

I went to court today and had two options, 9 months and one day or two split sentences of 110 days with three years of probation.  I chose the 110 days as the thought of prison scared me, in all honesty.  I know the process here at County so I choose comfort.

Now the worst past is I’m losing my apartment and my six-year-old dog Anndi, a german Shepard/Rottweiler will go back to the rescue because I have no one to hold her for me.

I will pick myself back up as I usually do.  So.  Just really mad at myself right now.

Sorry I have not been in touch at all.

Geez, it’s odd how things happen  and I came across two women in here who had Circles contact info.  I hope it’s correct and you guys get this.

I need some encouragement and positive thoughts sent my way.  Time is hard for me to do.  I stay inside my cell alot and write or read.  It is the only way I get through it.  I do get an occasional letter from a friend or my mom.  Cards can be sent, but they can’t be done with markers.  Only colored pens or pencils, not even crayons.

Today was commissary today so everyone is all hyped up on coffee or sugar.

Aunt Josie makes sure I have money on my books and the phone as well as she is taking care of other stuff for me too.  She is my rock.

Well, kids, not much else to say, so please write back.

Melanie Scott

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