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I hope things are looking up.  It might not feel that way, though.

We listen to country every weekend mornings.  I prefer rap and R & B.  But, it’s all we got.  I miss good music, but we get to listen to church music which isn’t all that bad, makes me cry usually.

In art we are making a book with all our art work and writings.,  I drew a picture of a girl.  I took half a face from a magazine and cut it in half and drew the other half.  It came out sooo good and wrote a few poems.  One was about finding God.

If I was my old sef when I get out I would be hateful to everyone who put me here but now that I have God he has shown me to forgive and not judge.  I will never forget anything we learned here.  It truly opened my eyes.  and it sucks I’m here but I’m thankful for was it has taught me.

On a side note, a girl in here got all mad because one of the new girls kept throwing the empty toilet paper roll on the floor so she took all the t.p. and would only let me and my cellie use it.  One of the new girls waa really pissed and took all our lunch trays and threw them across the room.  LOL! We had vegetable soup and rice everywhere.  All over the walls.  What a fun mess that was cleaning.  She said sorry to everyone though.  But it was crazy.

Keep praying!

A-rain-filled-Tabitha

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Well,

Went walking around the track today and picked up a book at the library that I ordered from the Bangor public library. It’s called Luthien’s Gamble by R.A. Salvatore.  Said goodbye this morning to Eddie, like I said, he’s a good kid and I’ll miss him.  Hopefully, he can stay out of prison and jail from now on. Say a prayer for him.

Had a bit of excitement this morning.  I was looking out my cell window to see what time it was, saw a large number of guards come in and search some  cells. They even cut up some of the green mattresses. They didn’t find anything, though.  A bit exciting.  Today, I plan on just relaxing and watch the Science Fiction Channel.  Kind of cloudy and foggy today, and tomorrow is going to be a wash out.

Just thought of something: no matter how weird the movies are on the Science Fiction Channel, the women are all good looking.

Looking out my cell window, it looks real foggy.  Sort of reminds me of the horror movie The Fog.

Not much to say about weather, we got rain, but not a lot.  So goodnight and God Bless You!

Excelsior!

Kenneth McDonald

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Maine State Prison – Kenneth McDonald – MDOC #114427

807 Cushing Road – Warren, Maine 04864-4600

I think it was Chesterton who said he “never met a comma he could trust.” I say: “If you can’t write a comprehensive tome, peace-meal the shit out of it.” I have decided that because I can’t come up with a one-theme bitch. I would just write random thoughts about life here at MCC in general and things that irk, annoy and piss me off in particular. Like life itself, there is no particular Rhyme or Reason to the ordering or level of annoyance here in express; just random pissing & moaning.

1) The old bastard who lives in my room and feels the need to chew fucking hard candy at six in the morning! Really? He has to chew hard candy at six? Personally I would like to strangle him to death, but that could be perceived as a threat from me should it be found out that my name is not really Bob Wire! So, the best I can hope for is that he dies, yes dies! Preferably by choking to death! Which brings me to my next Bitch.

2) This is a bigger bitch than my first bitch and the bitch is this: that this facility has classes to help inmates relearn how to live outside the prison in the real world. Help inmates to live in the real world? Is anyone seeing what I see? The system would not have to teach inmates how to live on the outside, if they did not (by cruel intention) strip inmates of any sense of normalcy of outside life. Ok?! People have to be locked up (really?)! Why the fuck can’t the prison system work as society works but just separate from the outside? The fact is MCC uses Techniques & Designs that intentionally strip inmates of every sense of normal life, only to train them over so they won’t fail when they are released. They will fail or have often failed because the system really, really, really trains them to Fail.

3) The last bitch is really a philosophical query. The query is what is the goal or mission statement of a correction center? What does corrections mean? What is to be corrected? Behavior? Help inmates learn to do things different? Teach them not to get caught again? The reader of this last bitch may be thinking Bob Wire ( me) has lost his nut, it is simple really. Help people change!!! On the surface, the helping inmates change makes sense, but not at MCC… see, at MCC there are plenty of programs IOP, CRA, AA/NA, thinking for a change. The problem is that only 20% of the inmates or so are chosen for programs, and by inference chosen to succeed. Stay with me here… there are mass numbers of people who come & go without ever touching a program.

Does that mean that the DOC & MCC don’t want to “correct” some inmates? Why do some persons here on sex offences get the “nationally renowned treatment program,” but not others? Does MCC want to correct some & not others? Why doesn’t every inmate here on drug charges get drug correction? Why doesn’t the arsonist get a fire correction program? Let me tell you why!! The reason is this:

The DOC & MCC do not give a shit about correcting inmates, for to do so would help reduce the population, it would further reduce Federal Funding on & on and on. The only reason MCC has programs is to give someone a job, get state & federal funding, & provide the public with the “illusion” that they give two shits about the inmates.

Bob Wire
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Hey, what’s popping?

I’ve been working on not focusing so much on the end result of things.  I bounce from one thing to another.  It’s like I don’t feel like I”m doing anything unless I’ striving for something, and then as soon as I get it or accomplish something, I’m on to the next.  I don’t even savor the accomplishment.  I really need to work on that.  Word.  Conditional reality.  That’s what I’m struggling with right now.  I need that happy core.

The falling down and getting back up is what life’s all about.  The day we stop getting back up  is when we really have problems.  I’ve learned that failure is when you give up.  It’s o.k. to make mistakes and fall down, but when we accept that and stop trying, that’s when we’ve failed.  So keep getting back up, everyone.

I can’t believe that this is the reason I self-sabotage so much.  I’m working on this, realizing this is the first step towards fixing it.  I don’t know why I hate myself; I think it’s some childhood shit.  I want you guys to know that I”m working hard to get better and be better so that when I come home I’m in the best possible space.

I’m trying to give all my problems to Allah, it’s hard though, because I’m such a control freak.  I know that He can handle everything better than I ever could so I need to start trusting in Him.  That is not stupid at all; everything is on loan to me from God, you know.  As for purpose, I am just starting to realize what my purpose isn’t.

Just know that I’m doing okay.

As I am,

Prince

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Maine State Prison = Daniel Fortune – MDOC #86753

807 Cushing Road – Warren, Maine 04864-4600

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Maine State Prison – Michael McQuade – MDOC #82448

807 Cushing Road – Warren, Maine 04864-4699

 

Governor Janet Mills and members of the Washington County delegation announced a plan to reopen the Downeast Correctional Facility Friday. The operation will be significantly smaller than it was before its 2018 closure.

MACHIASPORT, Maine — Reopening the Downeast Correctional Facility was high on the list of Governor Janet Mills’ campaign promises. On Friday, that plan got one step closer. Governor Mills and the Washington County delegation agreed to terms to build a new pre-release center on the DCF property.

“This is great news. This is awesome news. This is what we’ve been hoping for,” said Sen. Marianne Moore (R – Washington).

RELATED: DCF resurrected in deal to build pre-release center on lot

“We’re going to get a better facility, we’re going to a get a new and improved rebuilt facility when this has all come to fruition,” said Rep. Will Tuell (R-East Machias).

The facility is scheduled to open in two years. It will employ 15, down from the 50 that worked at the previous facility. It will hold 50 inmates, down from 150.

RELATED: Department of Corrections looks for new facility

Reopening the facility has been a mission for those in Machiasport and Washington County since its closure in 2018. Many are now optimistic.

“As a town we’d like some kind of stability down here, and this would be a wonderful place to start that,” said Machiasport Selectmen Jeffrey Davis.

Times have been tough for Machiasport residents since the facility’s closure. In addition to the nearly 50 employees who were laid off, many local businesses also lost the chance to have inmates in the prison’s work release program assist their businesses.

“I’ve seen how this is effecting our community. I’ve seen the things we don’t have now because of it, and it’s sad,” said Machiasport resident Melissa Hinerman.

RELATED: Corrections facility may return to Washington County

Although there will only be 15 jobs, compared to the previous 50, retired DCF employee Kevin Millay is excited to see any amount of jobs back in his county. “That’s a lot of staff for Washington County. You may not think that in Windham or Bangor, but it’s a start.”

Other former employees however are disappointed the new facility wont provide as many jobs or as many inmates.

“That’s not what we deserve and that’s not what’s best for the town,” said DCF employee of 24 years JJ Tibbetts.

For many of the former employees, an additional two years is a long time to wait to get back to work. When the facility opens, residents hope it can help alleviate some of the stresses caused by the closure.

“Please, arrest someone!  We need people to guard!”

‘It’s a very good day for Downeast’: Machiasport’s new facility will retain the Downeast Correctional Facility name and house 50 prisoners and 15 staff.

MACHIASPORT, Maine — A new pre-release center will be built on the grounds of the existing property of Downeast Correctional Center in Machiasport, Gov. Janet Mills and Washington County lawmakers jointly announced Friday.

The new facility will house up to 50 minimum-security prisoners and employ 15 staff, the governor’s office said. It will also retain its name of DCF.

“It’s a very good day for Downeast,” Rep. William Tuell, R-East Machias, told NEWS CENTER Maine.

Gov. Mills’ office said the Department of Corrections (DOC) has obtained estimates for design, demolition, and construction, with an estimated budget of $6.5 to $8 million. The DOC is working with the Bureau of Real Estate (BREM) to develop a request for qualifications for an architectural design, setting up the first step in a design-bid-build approach to reopening DCF.

An earlier proposal aimed to open a facility elsewhere in the county.

RELATED: Department of Corrections looks for new facility
RELATED: Washington County prison will house 50 inmates — but where?

Construction is estimated to take about 24 months before an opening.

The DOC is expected to engage with unions, including on the issue of extending recall rights of former employees, the governor’s office said.

Funding will come from a state government bond, approved in 2016, which also funds a remodel of Windham’s Maine Correctional Center.

Mills said she was proud her administration was able to work closely with state Sen. Marianne Moore, R-Washington; and Reps. Tuell; Rep. Kathy Javner, R-Chester; Rep. Billy Bob Faulkingham, R-Winter Harbor; and Rep. Robert Alley, D-Beals.

“As someone who fought to keep DCF open, I understand how important it is to the people of Washington County and I shared in their frustration when it was closed,” Mills said in a statement. “I thank the Washington County Delegation for working with me and Commissioner Liberty to rectify this situation as best we could and ensure that DCF continues on in this new facility.”

RELATED: Corrections facility may return to Washington County
RELATED: Downeast Corrections gets support from new budget

Tuell thanked the governor and her administration.

“We are very happy the Administration is keeping DCF where it is and keeping a promise to the people of Washington County,” he said. “Our delegation was committed to the current DCF location, and we are very pleased with the outcome.”

Sen. Moore was relieved an agreement had been made.

“I am happy to have been able to work with [Mills] and my fellow Washington County delegation to finally put to rest the issue of Downeast Correctional Facility so the local community can finally move forward with a resolution,” Moore said. “While the new facility won’t be to the scale of what DCF once was, it will once again provide an important service to our state and economy.”

DOC Commissioner Randall A. Liberty said it felt good to common ground with former DCF employees and lawmakers. “This new facility will keep alive the deeply rooted correctional tradition of the region,” he said.

Hey,

I’ve been in such a bad place, I’m so scared I’ll be locked up forever.  I’ll never get to see my kids again.  I’m just so scared.

I have never been around religion or had it in my family.  I feel as if I had God in my life before my lief got this bad, maybe I would of done better for myself.  Ever since I’ve accepted Him into my life I’ve been stronger.  So people only go to church or bible study to get out of the block, so did I at first.  Until God spoke to me.  Everything they read and spoke was what I needed in my life.  Look up the song by Crowder, “Come as you are.” In Bible study the other night this song spoke to me.  I couldn’t help but break down in tears.  I wasn’t alone, though; all the ladies were crying (thankfully.)  Didn’t want to show weakness.  I’m still learning the Bible and learning the stories of Jesus Christ.  But in Church two weeks ago, we started with a prayer.  The lady was telling God to knock at our doors and I shit you not, the bookshelves started knocking… my mouth dropped open and I was in complete shock.  But I needed to know He hears us.  It gave me warmth for some reason.

I feel hopeless  I can’t do anything to help my situation locked up in here.  It hurts so bad.  I will absolutely pray with the ladies!  They have been teaching me a lot about the Bible.  I have a friend in here who is reconnecting with God.  She’s amazing.  I’m actually going to request a minister.  The girl I was talking about above did, and I never realized that I could in here.

I have absolutely had sooooo much tragedy.  It’s awful being young…it’s fucked up.  I blame myself for putting myself in a impossible situation I had no control over, couldn’t get out of it.  Was completely trapped. I see mental health and am waiting for the grievance councilor.  Honestly, jail isn’t bad.  We get maybe two new girls a week, but they never stay long.  There are a lot more men.  The C.O.s are great here.  The food isn’t the worst.  And there’s a lot to do around here.  I WILL NOT BE BACK! after this is over.. seriously though, I won’t be back.  I need my Freedom.

The things I would do for a smoke… damn.

It’s all about getting out of my mind.  It can be very depressing more lately.  I will get through this.  If I can get through this I know I can get through anything!

I don’t know how to do Origami.  I totally wish I did though.

Keep praying!

A-rain-filled-Tabitha

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It’s the end of April, and I’m seeing flowers and green grass. A lot of seagulls are flying around as well. I’m doing pretty good in here, and no one’s giving me any problems. Tell old Hawkeye that I said hello and that I’m doing a lot better than I was doing in 2009 and 2010. Was wondering if you could send me any information on a frog species that I read about. It’s called the “fanged frog” and they have been finding them in Asia. I read about it and would love to find out more about them. They sound kind of cool. Well, I have to go and God bless you.

Who, Who, Who.

Kenneth McDonald, Aka: Owl, Malibu

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Write to Kenny via:
Maine State Prison – Kenneth McDonald – MDOC #114427
807 Cushing Road – Warren, Maine 04864-4600 

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