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Thanks for getting right back to me.  It’s 6:12am and I’m waiting for count.  I just finished my readings that I do every morning: Daily Bread, Daily reflections, as Bill Sees It.  This morning there is a big book meeting that just started where an outsider comes in.

We don’t get the new catalog for the care package until the end of next month, and then I’d have to fill it out and Circle would have to call it in.  But, you guys would need a credit card.  But we do have a very good commissary.  And no, I don’t have any fines or restitution.

The reason why I didn’t want Kennebec County time is because the food was awful, the guards were cocky, the place was filthy.  As far as Pete , he’s go about a year and a half and he can retire.

I’m taking eight different classes.

Hey, you guys told me that Rage’s birthday was happening, but you didn’t say when.  I turned 54 in November.

If you don’t mind, could you guys send me some money for commissary, plus, we can smoke.  $5.84 for 1839s.  I have to bum cigarettes and it’s so hard to find one.

What ever happened to Isaac on Sunday mornings at WMPG?  You guys turned me on to him and he was great, but now he’s gone.


Miss Linda


March 13th, 2015

Hello, folks.  Well, today is friday the 13th and nothing unlucky is happening.  I guess the unluckiness of friday the 13th has  been greatly over-hyped.  WEll, I heard tomorrow we are supposed to be getting about a foot of snow mixed in with rain.  Oh, well.  Spring will be here soon.  I think this Tuesday is Saint Patrick’s day, isn’t it.  So how did yo like that character write-up?  I kind of tried to make him unique.  So how did you guys like the map of the University and the adventure ideas?  The dorm buildings are circular and each dorm room holds two students each and the dorms are co-ed.  Each dorm holds up to fifty students.

March 14th, 2015

Well, it’s raining down here, so it must be snowing there?  Hey, you guys remember the old Transformers series from years ago?  Well, the Cartoon Network has a new Transformers series.  They are going to be on at 6:30pm on Saturday mornings on the Cartoon Network.  The original Transformers bumble bee is on it.  But, Optimus Prime is supposedly dead.  Well, I cam up with an idea for a secret society for your campaign.  I hope you guys like it.

The Blood-Shark Society.

The Blood-Shark Society is a group of fanatical shark worshippers.  There are 250 members and fifty of them can turn into were-sharks.  They seek out people to capture and feed to a species of red skinned sharks.  They believe that each sacrifice prevents the flooding of the World.   It is the sharks themselves that have implanted this idea into their heads.

Kenneth MacDonald



I’m almost done this bid.  112 days left.

Boy, there’s a lot of bullying and saving seats in here.  It’s like kindergarten with these people.  I’m still going to meetings and groups.  I started a writing class; it’s alright.  A little boring.  The one I really enjoyed which we graduated from about two weeks ago was Houses of Healing, a very intense group where you try to find your inner self.  I’ve got about three more classes in Moving oOn, I’ll be graduating the GEAR group.  I’ve got about six more classes in codependency group.  “They” put me in the 18th, I’ll be starting “Seeking Safety”.  I’m in

Sarssm group untill May.  That’s a really good group about trauma.  I’ve got a really great sponsor; she’s got 35 years of sobriety.  She’s taking through this book called “the steps we took.”  She also comes in on Sundays and she’s taking everyone through the Big Book.  April 13th will be my big first year of Sobriety.

Hope to hear from you guys soon.

Miss Linda

Hey, Circle!

It’s good to hear from you guys.  Hope that all is well.  I’m doing alright, living the dream, you know?  Waiting on Pre-Trial to get me outta here.  It’s such a slow process, because I was using and I don’t have an address currently.  They’re putting me in a twenty-eight day rehab program on the border of Canada.

I’m having a status conference soon, and if I’m able to get out of here without Pre-trial, I’ll be back at the Preb; Pretrial won’t release me straight to there… but, yeah, I’ll be going to a sober house called “the Farm”  in LImestone, Maine.  Temporarily.  But my dad’s helping me out with an apartment and a car as soon as my court stuff is resolved, hopefully after the 28 day rehab.  I’m hoping that I can plead out at my status conference and get time served, and if not then with probation,  I doubt that, because it’s a class B felony but the jail is at max capacity.  I haven’t been indicted that I know of; my case is all hear-say.  No hard evidence.  They searched my place and didn’t find anything.

Say a prayer: I’ve been here 86 days so far.  Hope to see everyone on the outs; hope to get a place in Portland.

Hope to hear back from you guys soon,



I wrote back faster this time.

Every night here, I walk two miles on the treadmill.  I’m not rolling out of here!  I’m doing about 14 months on 18 months.

They have a clothes closet so you can wear regular clothes.  Feels so good.  We even get commissary between 7 to 730am.  When I first came here, a very nice woman crocheted me a blanket for my bed.  You’re never in your room, though.  The longest time we’re in our rooms is during visits (4hours.)  They even have a yarn bank (scrap) where you can get yarn to crochet whatever you want.

Next Monday I’ll be celebrating six months sober!  They’re gonna mention it at the town meeting on Wednesday.  I’m flying right by these women.  I go to four AA meetings a week, doing classes, working with mental health, bible study.  There’s still some classes I”m still waiting to take.  I signed up for four more classes.  I”m so happy and I like where I am.  Today, and every morning, I read “My Daily Bread” and daily reflection.

Hope to hear from more of you guys.


Miss Linda

Hi. Your letter got sent back, because the letter was too big. So here is one with my name.  Send me a letter.

How is all of you?  I have been in for 3 1/2 months.  I be out in April or May.  Miss you guys.  I have money now.  Tell the guys I said hi.  Thanks for the Christmas card.  The Goblin was in here two times.  What is Rage’s real name?

Someone come visit me.  Wednesday: 830pm, Saturday: 545pm.

I am doing pushups every day.  Walking.  I gained 20 pounds since October first.  I wrote new songs.  I have my own cell.  I got turned down for a work release.

Well, write me.

Star Blanket

Hi, free world.  How are you?  I’m fine, thanks, and a little pale.

Windham Prison is kind of an unpleasent place to be, yet these things happen when you’re doing things that do not agree with your center, or the Tao.  So, I’m serving 16 months in prison because I was staying with the “victim” of my domestic violence case.  The State said “Don’t go see her.”  And I did, anyway.  What made things worse is that she did some things (constantly) that my ego, psyche and person/human-hood would not stand for, whether (spell check) or not she admits it.  With this time I have decided to re-evaluate everything I have ever known and hopefully learn some new things.

Day to day is inconvenient.  I can’t do all the things I could on the street.  I miss smoking cigs the most.  But I get by, being in A-Pod or going throught the classification process is no fun.  We are locked down 21 hours a day.  There aren’t many programs availavble here; it’s limited to one library book by request form a week and  bible study.  And that’s everything,.  I have seen a head-shrinker, a substance abuse councillor, and a nurse.  Time seems to be going smoothly despite the lock-down time.  “Lord of  Chaos” by Robert Jorden helps the time pass rather well.  I hope “Atlas Shrugged” by Ayn Rand does the same.  I think the education director told me to be well.

That reminds me of someone I know, which then reminds me of a delusional stuffed bear.  But, that, like most things, is beside the point.  All right-minded people and some that are not can really do only one thing in here.  Try to make the best of our time.  Speaking of time, that’s all I have for you this week, so I’ll see you in the next.

Yours truly,
Truly yours,


What’s killing your heart?  I sit, filled with love, hope, peace, silence, prayer?  Or is your heart filled with fears, obsessions, worries, dissatisfaction?  Is your heart filled with addictive thinking or behaviour?  Whether you are a person in jail or new to the concept of peace, I hope you will find time to examine your own heart and identify your own challenges.

There are empty places that I cannot fill.  Deep pains that still haunt me.  So, I fill my self with things that don’t satisfy.  Things to soften the ache inside.  It is an endless cycle of stuffing down the truth of my heart – instead of letting it soar freely.  For only in truth can I find release.   But when I face the reality of the darkness, the truth of all things that hold me, the chains can be broken and the path to healing can begin.

Truly loving the self involves willingly befriending what emerges into the light of conciouslness.  Befriending doesn’t mean always agreeing or cooperating.  It  means, in a way, treating the different aspects of ourselves as “others” the same way we might tyreat them if they appeared in other people.  We listen respectfully, cooperated and cherish or forgive, as called for.  Should some aspect of the self prove difficult or an enemy, we practice the difficult art of blessing it and praying for it, seeking out the heart of its disturbance rather that hating it, cursing it, and seeking to destroy it – even while we restrain ourselves from acting it out.

Growth is not always about getting through terrible pain.  Most often it involves change, perhaps only a small shift in awareness or embracing a good part of you that got lost.

Ust the things of this world as nature needs them, but not with excessive attachment.  For people become like what they love.

Frankie McNiece

Sobriety’s a cruel mistress, Addiction is insidious, It constantly waits for us to weaken so it can attack when we least expect it. I deal with my addiction every second of the day. I’m addicted to addiction. When I get out it will be a constant struggle. The co heated up some fish, it smells like a sardine cannery, so things in my world are not going so hot. Today is dreary, misting, cloudy, chilly. Just my type of day, no gum today, tomorrow. Just doing stair stepping, seems to be farely accurate about my calorie burn and heart rate, I’m not losing weight though. It’s very frustrating, AA is going well. I enjoy seeing the guys from the KCB group, meeting every Monday at St. Peters group. Classes are going well. Got a months left in this hole, not to bad. Hopefully it goes fast. I found a school i’d like to go to. It’s called the New England school of Metal Work. It’s going to be for welding, I could take classes at SMCC to, I think it would be more expensive though, and it’s for an associates degree, which I don’t really care to get. Looking forward to cultural diversity, I think I fit in better with other ethnicities. I’m kind of overall the close-mindedness. Being a sex offender I live and breathe it. I’m still coming to terms with being labeled for the rest of my life.

I get out in July, with no more good time coming back to me.  So least I have a basic idea.  Time’s flying right by.  I think the Indian Spring made it feel like summer.  Not much happening.  Taking IOP ’till I get out.  With Sue.  She’s something else.  We’re trying to get an extra day a week so we end sooner.  going m-t and friday.  Me and QT are still working out.  Just weight training.  I haven’t done cardia in a while.  You can tell.  I’m grossly outta shape.  Kinda round.  But my extremities are nice and solid.  Thinkin’ how it’s gonna go when I get out.  I still got some time left.  Hopi ng when one of my cellmates  gets out, he and I can move in together.  He gets out, like, nine months after me.  I’d need a roommate if I want to get out of those damn boarding house.

Listening to Cinderella from the ‘xander show.  Any who.  Will talk to y’all soon.  Hopefully someone will read this.


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