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Well,

I’m almost done this bid.  112 days left.

Boy, there’s a lot of bullying and saving seats in here.  It’s like kindergarten with these people.  I’m still going to meetings and groups.  I started a writing class; it’s alright.  A little boring.  The one I really enjoyed which we graduated from about two weeks ago was Houses of Healing, a very intense group where you try to find your inner self.  I’ve got about three more classes in Moving oOn, I’ll be graduating the GEAR group.  I’ve got about six more classes in codependency group.  “They” put me in the 18th, I’ll be starting “Seeking Safety”.  I’m in

Sarssm group untill May.  That’s a really good group about trauma.  I’ve got a really great sponsor; she’s got 35 years of sobriety.  She’s taking through this book called “the steps we took.”  She also comes in on Sundays and she’s taking everyone through the Big Book.  April 13th will be my big first year of Sobriety.

Hope to hear from you guys soon.

Miss Linda

Hey all, it’s Sundog reporting on the good, the bad, and the ugly. I’m stayin inside MCC A-POD. I first gotta let you know the most important. If you plan on being here, plan on plan on being stuck here for a couple of months. It’s taking them so long to place us. I know that everywhere you look it’s over full. You’ll see for yourself. I am working on my fourth week so far. I can’t stand A-POD. And to think another five to eight weeks before I get to where I’m going sucks. The longer you stay in A-POD is when you start POD Jumping, because they need to circulate us.

The reason behind being so full: First us Drivers! Third of us in here are for driving. One way or another we get the most time. I could have robbed a store at gun point and gotten the same amount of time. I drove a mile and a half down the street delivering christmas presents and got robbed. They are throwing the fuckin book at me. It was all fun and games till I got classed medium for a driving offense. I’m waiting to hear back from an appeal. I’ve never been medium. This means I can either stay here OR go to MSP. I will choose to stay here if need be. I’m hoping I get to go to Charleston. Fingers crossed. There is a ton of people here for either Drugs, Driving, or Skinning. That’s been the majority of the crimes.

I’m hoping to recruit some more people to write to the website. If you’re a good writer our there I would love some mail!

RAYMOND MUNSON MDOC#83366
17 MALLISON FALLS RD, WINDHAM, ME 04062

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What’s up? Just the same old shit here just another day in paradise!

Addiction sucks trust me this I know, not alcohol but an addiction is still an addiction all the same. Just take things one day at a time, I don’t want to see you back in here man. That is a huge fear of mine when my time is up here is slipping up and getting high. I am sick of doing time but things are overwhelming when you leave here especially after doing an eight year sentence, I can only imagine how things will be. And getting anxiety just going into the visit room to see my family here, but enough of all that.

Oh shit I almost forgot. Did you hear that Kelly Larsen passed away, I guess his mom found him in his bed the next morning. I don’t know the exact cause of death, but I had heard that he was clean from drugs so it could have been his diabetes or something. It’s too bad man he was a cool kid and I liked  him a lot. Makes you realize how short life can be I guess.

I think it was Chesterton who said he “never met a comma he could trust.” I say: “If you can’t write a comprehensive tome, peace-meal the shit out of it.” I have decided that because I can’t come up with a one-theme bitch. I would just write random thoughts about life here at MCC in general and things that irk, annoy and piss me off in particular. Like life itself, there is no particular Rhyme or Reason to the ordering or level of annoyance here in express; just random pissing & moaning.

1) The old bastard who lives in my room and feels the need to chew fucking hard candy at six in the morning! Really? He has to chew hard candy at six? Personally I would like to strangle him to death, but that could be perceived as a threat from me should it be found out that my name is not really Bob Wire! So, the best I can hope for is that he dies, yes dies! Preferably by choking to death! Which brings me to my next Bitch.

2) This is a bigger bitch than my first bitch and the bitch is this: that this facility has classes to help inmates relearn how to live outside the prison in the real world. Help inmates to live in the real world? Is anyone seeing what I see? The system would not have to teach inmates how to live on the outside, if they did not (by cruel intention) strip inmates of any sense of normalcy of outside life. Ok?! People have to be locked up (really?)! Why the fuck can’t the prison system work as society works but just separate from the outside? The fact is MCC uses Techniques & Designs that intentionally strip inmates of every sense of normal life, only to train them over so they won’t fail when they are released. They will fail or have often failed because the system really, really, really trains them to Fail.

3) The last bitch is really a philosophical query. The query is what is the goal or mission statement of a correction center? What does corrections mean? What is to be corrected? Behavior? Help inmates learn to do things different? Teach them not to get caught again? The reader of this last bitch may be thinking Bob Wire ( me) has lost his nut, it is simple really. Help people change!!! On the surface, the helping inmates change makes sense, but not at MCC… see, at MCC there are plenty of programs IOP, CRA, AA/NA, thinking for a change. The problem is that only 20% of the inmates or so are chosen for programs, and by inference chosen to succeed. Stay with me here… there are mass numbers of people who come & go without ever touching a program.

Does that mean that the DOC & MCC don’t want to “correct” some inmates? Why do some persons here on sex offences get the “nationally renowned treatment program,” but not others? Does MCC want to correct some & not others? Why doesn’t every inmate here on drug charges get drug correction? Why doesn’t the arsonist get a fire correction program? Let me tell you why!! The reason is this:

The DOC & MCC do not give a shit about correcting inmates, for to do so would help reduce the population, it would further reduce Federal Funding on & on and on. The only reason MCC has programs is to give someone a job, get state & federal funding, & provide the public with the “illusion” that they give two shits about the inmates.

– Bob Wire
MDOC# not provided

Hello everyone. It’s X-Ray again! It’s been about five weeks since my last blog. Have you ever loved anyone you haven’t met yet? I believe in love and that’s why I have a heart of gold. Ms. Cattia Bartlett is so amazing. Thank you so much Cattia for the pen pals. I appreciate it so much! MUAH! Time is better with some new friends. Thanks to you, I have three pen pals. I am eternally grateful.

So, my blog this time is about life. You meet certain people for a reason. Just like certain things happen for a reason. Should I say that maybe some higher spirit is directing me? I am so blessed knowing I have made true friendships in here at Windham Hilton County Club.

Meeting Rage was a complete surprise. I believe it was Fate. He has given me strength and courage. Sometimes if you can imagine someone like myself being a gay american in a person where you really don’t fit in because of peoples’ ignorances, then meeting a man who has crazy hair and totally outrageous insight to this world and what he has been given is amazing. I am totally thankful that Rage found some sayings for me.

Some quotes if you will. My favorite saying is “I ain’t no shampoo girl, I’m the real deal!” if this sounds familiar it’s because he got it from the movie Monster, where the charlizetheron throws herself into the gross role of the prostitute killer / lesbo. Such a scary movie! I could only watch it just once. Poor girl, poor life she lived. but that saying always was in the back of my head. I had forgotten it until I met Rage. Love that saying, “I ain’t no shampoo girl, I’m the real deal.” LOL.

And a complete funny joke about gay men, it’s, “What kind of tea don’t gays like? Cun-tea!” LMAO. Funny Shit. Little things amuse me.

Like, I think because I’ve finally accepted myself a weight has been lifted off. And being off the pot helps too. I’m much happier now five months in prison than I was on the outs, not grasping what my life was meant for and just the confusing cloud that everyone goes through. The stress of worrying what it is, my life should be like.

Now, I finally know the secret “acceptance” of yourself, and not judging. There is so much more to life than what I made it out to be. Another quote: “Get busy living or Get Busy dying!” So true! Hate depression but I do believe depression can be cured with love with friends and family and of all things, “acceptance” of one’s self. Like one  of my favorite movies says, “Don’t get mad – get even!” Happiness is the key. No one can take that away. I have totally been soul-searching in here. I’ve been using my time wisely. What I need to do now is leave commissary alone. LOL

I just want to say that it’s deff been an experience to spend a year with different roommates, “most of them crazy” a living sober life.

Love the clarity of it all.

And just something random – I friggin’ love Adam Lambert.

Little oh me spent a week in the hole. SEGREGATION – it’s for the birds. It’s a boring dungeon of a place. Thankfully I only spent a week. That was like a month ago when I amde the decision to hit a seven-foot mother fucker for referring to me as a fag one too many times. I never scratch or pull hair, I stand up for me. I love me!

Thanks everyone for reading. Thanks to my new pen pals. Cattia I don’t have your address so write me! XOXOXO – Thanks Lyssarian, send my card reading to me place.

Good thoughts!

X0x0,
– X-Ray
Raymond Munson
MDOC# 83366

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