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Hey, Circle,

Well, it looks like we’re going to have a  pretty good winter after all.  Getting lots of snow now.  Haven’t seen any yeti running around, although some of the guys are large enough to qualify as yeti.  I guess we are going to get more snow this Wednesday and Thursday.  My New Years is going good.  Heck, no, I wouldn’t mind if anyone out there wanted to write me.

My sister is doing qiuite well.

Good night.

Kenneth McDonald

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I am my own worst enemy.

For most of my life I have denied this and have been okay with not examining the reasons for my troubles.  Today I have decided that enough is enough, starting today I will be my best friend, I will love myself, an I will believe in myself.  I know, I know I am not saying anything new or unknown.  To quote the Declaration of Independence: “We hold these truths to be self-evident…” but this has not always been the case.  However, recent events in my life have made it abundantly clear that now is the time for change.

I have always looked down on people who have wanted to “recreate” or “reinvent” themselves.  In my mind if you didn’t like a part of who you are then you should have never let it become habit.  It is extremely ironic that I now find myself in situations where I must do the same.  For years I have allowed negative, damaging thoughts, emotions and actions in my life because I believed it was necessary to survive in the situations I found myself in.  Dr. Joe Dispenza has shown me how wrong I was.

“Your personality creates your personal reality.”

Dr. Dispenza says in his movie, Aligning your thoughts and feelings for a New Destiny.  The realization that my thoughts and feelings created my reality was something that I knew but have never explored.  Exploring this has forced me to remove the last of my blinders.  Now, more than ever, I can look around and see my present circumstances for what they are.

My present circumstances are the biggest and best opportunity I have even had to change.  I will no longer be who I think I have to be or who others want me to be.  I will become the man who I want to be.  Recognizing the truth in what Dr. Dispenza says has shown me that I have had and will always have the power to do better.  Dr. Dispenza also speaks about how in every case (that he studied) in which people made a miraculous recovery from a disease or illness, they surrendered themselves to a higher power.  This resonates with me because the idea of surrender has been the best and yet most difficult issue of my faith.

As a Muslim the idea of Allah being in control, wanting what is best for me, and not giving me more problems/pain than I can handle is a balm to my soul. Yet, I struggle with the concept that in order for Allah to be in control, I cannot be. The reality that he knows what is best for me and what is right for me stares me in the face every day.  I can no longer continue to fight it.  I have not demonstrated a love for myself or that I want what is best for myself, because who in their right mind would make the choices I have or want to be where I am?  Yet all of my thoughts have led me to this place.

I am now ready to embody the change that is  necessary for me to be who I should be.  Allah has blessed me with many talents and abilities that I have run from or misused for the majority of my life.  I am done with being somebody who has wasted potential; instead I will be somebody who has realized their potential.  I will not continue to be anything other than the best possible version of myself.  One of my favorite sayings is, “Our biggest fear is not the darkness, it is our light… for who are we to be beautiful?  Who are we to be powerful beyond all belief?”  I am paraphrasing a Nelson Mandela quote.  The events, conversations and lessons of this last year have led me to a point where I understand that without some serious painful introspection I will never stop makin the same mistakes.  It is not enough to not want to make them.  I have to understand why I am making them in the first place.

Starting this process has been eye-opening.  I will probably be doing it for the rest of my life, because once I started I do not wish to stop.. It has brought a clarity into my life that is much need.  I could wax poetically about all of the insights I have gained, but I won’t.  I will instead let them speak for themselves.  I am not the same person that I was last year, last month, last week or even yesterday.  It is my firm belief that these changes I have made and will continue to make will be apparent to all in my life.  It has been a long time coming but I am finally okay with being me.  As l as I am continually striving to be the best version of myself.  Some days I will make mistakes, fall or revert to old habits, but I will never stop picking myself up and trying for better.

As I am,

Prince

prince

Hello, Rage.

So, how are you doing?  How are the cats?  Meow.  Say hello to them for me.  The idea about publishing gaming material sounds pretty good to me.  I’m thinking tha I should get my stuff published by a company called Kenzer and Company.  They publish fantasy games like “Hackmaster” and “Kingdoms of Kalamar,” a western game called “Aces and Eights,” “Shattered Frontiers,” various roleplay resources and a comic called “Knights of the Dinner Table that is also part magazine for gamers and an e-zine called “Hack Journal.”  I could send my gaming stuff in and when they publish it, they’ll send me the money (checks sometimes take 10-15 days to clear.  Maybe you could put some of my stuff on the blog, or start a new gaming blog.  You could check to see if Wizards of the Coast still publishes Gygax Magaizine, a company called “Open Design” was publishing “Kobold Quarterly” and you could check to see if Goodman Games is still publishing “Level Up” magazine.  I have some ideas that I’ll be sending you guys.

Kenneth McDonald

kenny

Anybody out there like to read?

I have always loved to read. I love how a good book brings you into the author’s world. I love all kinds of genres. I will read anything as long as it’s well written. Right now I’ve got like four books going – 1. “Fifty Shades of Gray” (I can say it’s a great book, hahaha!) 2. “Mastery” by Robert Greene – it’s along the lines of “48 laws of power” and “the Art of Seduction.” 3. A Lucas Davenport murder mystery by John Sanford and 4. “American Desperado” about a cocaine lawyer who lived in Miami in the eighties.

What are you people reading right now? What are some of your favorite books?

As I am,

Prince

prince

Hey, what’s up?

How are things going, anyway?  Thanks for the postcard of the Old Port.  Looking at it makes me wonder if the place is haunted or not.  It would be pretty cool if it was.

So what’s going on with the game?  Have you guys had time to play it lately?  I’m still working on a few gaming ideas here and there, will be sending you a few new things, sometime near the end of the month.

Well, I guess the winter is finally over, no more snow, I guess.  The weather is kind of nice out.  Well, on June 18th of this year, I will be tuning fifty.   Well, this afternoon, I’m watching a vampire movie called “Queen of the Damned.”

Hoped to hear from you guys soon.

Kenneth McDonald

kenny

Hey, Circle.

What’s poppin’?

As far as me ever getting out, I’m currently waiting on the judge to make a post-conviction ruling.  Well, God will let me out when he wants to and not a second before.  I’m okay with that.  Don’t get it fucked up: I want to be out, a.s.a.p., but I trust God.  He has a perfect plan for me.

As I am,

Prince

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prince

“He, who is attached to much, will suffer much.” I love this quote. I am a somebody who is attached to many things. I also hate to make mistakes. I am rarely satisfied with an A when it is possible for me to get an A+. I have never thought about giving myself permission to make mistakes. I generally go about the thought process of making mistakes like this. I try to avoid making them but I know that they are inevitable. I am a firm believer in if you are not making mistakes then you are not trying hard enough. Having the courage to try something eight times is a remarkable story of strength. I will have to work on giving myself permission to be gentle on myself.

Hey,

Could someone send me more information on Saba Islet?  Is hellsgate some sort of prison?  Search any of the news information involving both Bottom and Windwardside that could be used as adventure ideas.  Has any treasure been found on the island?  In the old days I believe it used to be a buccaneer’s strong hold.  Also wondering if someone could send me some more spells from the Dragonsfoot website.  Looking for Voltaic Thread and Pollen Ball, plus some magic user spells like eye parasite and a few of their illusion phantasm spells.

Thanks.

Kenneth McDonald

“ONce a human being has arrived on this Earth, communication is the largest single factor in determining what happens to him in the world.” – Virginia Satir

This is a quote that I will remember and use for the rest of my life.  It’s encouraging, inspiring, and yet it is also extremely daunting.  My greatest skill is communication , so that is why it is encouraging, but I am also careless with my words l, or use them as weapons to wound and hurt.  Th hear this quote and to think upon it, that my skill or lack thereof and the role that this will play in my life makes me realize that I have a lot of improving to do.  It has made me decide to devote my full effort to this class (Public Speaking)  so that I can get everything possible out of it to maximize my potential.

One of the things that struck me about this chapter was the part where it said that communication is irreversible.  I like the quote: “One seldom regrets unspoken words.”  Like I said earlier, I have the gift of gab, but I often speak  without thinking about the impact my words will have.  This is a great problem for me because I am at the crossroads of my life, in the next couple of years and my actions, words, behavior during them will determine what happens with the rest of my life.  My biggest challenge over the last couple of years has been slowing myself down.  When somebody asks what is going on with me I tell them “slow motion.”  This is a reminder to myself to slow down and think before I act, or speak.  I used to operate under the misconception that I had to be moving fast at all times or I would gt bored or not get to my destination.  Now I understand that “slow motion is better than no motion, and no motion is better than moving backwards.”  I fully believe that when I master this in my speech than I will have mattered it in all aspects of my life.

I also was a big fan of the book “Communication Skills for your life.”  The part where it said that every time you talk with someone you either enlarge or diminish that person hit hard.  I am playing chess with my life right now, those reminders serve to drive somehow everything I do and say matters.  In addition I do not wish to be the kind of person who when others finish a conversation with me they do not want to have another.  The last two things I will speak about here are the topics of “Not taking things so personally,” and “listening without verbal interruption.”  those are two things that I find myself doing with frustrating regularity.  When I take things personally, I usually respond with person ao attacks and as you can imagine I engage in a lot of verbal sparing.  As for interrupting ever since I read about the twelve second rule (wait 12 seconds before you answer someone.) I have paid more attention to that.  I find that I interrupt way too much.  Largely because I find that either what I have to say is more important or i just don’t want to hear something I already know.  Both of these reasons are rude and arrogant.and unacceptable.

As I am,

Prince

Hi.

Here’s more on the module.  I hope that everyone interested enjoys.

The City of Oceanmorn takes great pride in the University and students are known as “anchormen”

By virtue of an agreement struck by representatives of the local Whore’s UnionBeggars Guild, Thieves Guild, Assassins Guild, Sorcerers Guild, the Knights of the Anchor and the Boosters, Wealthy supporters of the school, Black Anchor University and it’s students have been declared off-limits for any kind of criminal activity. No student is to be harmed or robbed in,  way, shape or form.  Any one who does any of the previous incurs the wrath of not only law enforcement, but also the wrath of the multitudinous members of the dark guilds listed above, not to mention thee wrath of all the students, ex-students, teachers lots of whores and anyone else who is even remotely connected to to the school/whorehouse.

Students and graduates of the University have a tattoo in the palm of each hand and adventurers who have graduated from the University have a tattoo placed on their foreheads, of a black anchor, encoiled with a serpant eating a tiny naked woman with the words “INTO VAGINUS CUM PENIUS MAXIMUS” benearth.  The tattoos ward off all aquatic undead and all other forms of undead will leave the wearer of the tattoo alone when they see it.

The University has its own security department, made up of well paid high level (seven +) fighting men, known as “the Knights of the Anchor.”  The dress exactly like Maine State Prison Guards, but with helmets, shields and swords.  Unfortunately, their security license gives any of the guards power over any student or teacher at the school, regardless of class or level.  Any new student, male or female, can expect to be raped and gang-banged, until these uncontrollable rakes are reigned in.

The University has a large and well-stocked library that includes a large number of journals, spell books, scrolls and diaries written by the ancient mages and bards.  Special permission must be given to anyone who wants access to the spellbooks and scrolls.  The School of Magic is a five-year school and the students go to school year round with two – three-week vacations a year. There is a Courtesan Department, where women learn how to suck dick, make pies and knit sweaters. The College of Music is first class, and has a large number of students with a passion for the musical arts.  It has a large selection of musical instruments, including, according to rumor, magical instruments that are occasionally given to the most gifted students. The Math Department is also wonderful, and with the Astronomy Department are constructing a telescope which will be able to see the surface of Mars.  The Chemistry Department is not good at all.  It is full of whores.

More to come.

Malibu Owl

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