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My tagname is H. Life used to be kind. Never had any trouble with the law, never really had trouble with anyone. Then, six years ago, I fell through a plate glass window & my left arm was near to being completely severed. Luckily, it was able to be repaired, but the nerve damage left me in constant pain. To cope with this (at age 16) I was put on oxycottin and morphine.

I first realized that I was addicted when my physician, afraid that I could become addicted took me off of everything. By three days time the pain & the withdrawal symptoms were so overwhelming that he was forced to put me back on the medications. Of course, over time, with opiates, you need more & more & more & when they won’t prescribe you enough, you cross that line between “use” & “abuse.” (Although if they prescribe it, I guess it’s still “use”.) The next thing you know, you’re a criminal.

I’m in a prison doing 4 years for a burglary (to support my habit) followed by subsequent probation violations. Despite my condition (in addition to addiction & chronic pain, I also suffer from mental illness) I was not offered any alternative to sentencing, no rehab, no hospitalization. Am I done using/abusing substances? Not unless “they” come up with a cure for cravings, and an alternate to pain management. I wish that I could be a surgeon, and heal others. But that’s not happening now.

– Nicholas “H” Hamilton
MDOC# 66835

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Don “Grendal” Williams again, a prisoner at the MCC in Windham, with two labels which should be a plus here but which aren’t.

1) I’m a gulf coast veteran. (How come there are so many vets in here?) So, where is the love & support from the citizenry I fought for? (Sent me off to Afganistan, to go and kill the taliban) Nope. Well, I guess I shouldn’t have seen unspeakable things committed with .50 calibers which haunt my dreams & shouldn’t have gotten hooked on self-medication when I returned to “Opaitopia” (Maine).

2) I’m a long term member of AA. Now, I wrote something recently about a former sponsor of mine, whose ample girth is still capably supported by a Harley (constructed well, apparently) sold to him by LA Harleys (Never trust sponsors who tell you that doing odd jobs for them is part of recovery!)

I don’t remember what I wrote, but Ben F. “Dover” is no longer my sponsor. I was going to write about how AA people (sorry, not just district 12) react when members go to jail (they say, “Fuck you! Bye bye!” gossip about you, & if they can, they divide your garments by casting lots. AA NEVER writes or visits.) But — my current sponsor Mike K, does write me, actually sent me a recovery bible.

Hey – know why I love AA meetings in Maine, cause I can gamble at the meetings! In Maine, gambling isn’t considered a compulsion by Ben F. and AA so there’s a 50/50 raffle at nearly every meeting! Yay!

Sincerely,

Don Williams
MDOC# 99212

Joseph Poulin, MDOC# 2192

This is Joseph Poulin again. (Ladies, check out my MySpace page! I’m from Oakland, Maine.)

Well, I’m pissed off. One of the guys I eat dinner with at Chow Hall, “X-Ray,” Raymond Munson, is down at the home-confinement dorm (people being prepared for home confinement) and he is being so hated on by the other prisoners for being gay, it’s pissing me off! Those rednecks wrote a letter to the CO down there accusing him of being a snort. Any way, if there are any not-too-scary-marys out there in the Queer Nation, Ray could use your support. And Ladies – I too need love, is that so wrong?! Write me.

Sincerely, Joe Poulin, safe-cracker, embezzler, Tuba player.

– Joseph Poulin
MDOC# 2192

My name is Andrew Flood. I have anxiety to the point where it borders on schizophrenia. Agoraphobia x 10.

In 1997, when I was around 20 or 21, I accidentally (after a night of bar hopping & heavy drinking & drugging (opiates)) set a garage on fire doing moderate damage. With no prior criminal record, I was sentenced to 10 years, all but five suspended. I was not offered any alternative treatment.

So, I spent the first half of my 20s in prison (& I don’t even want to go into my education there.) I was released in 2002, went to drug & alcohol counseling, got a good job, &c. When I began to have opiate cravings, I went on suboxone (through my doctor & notifying my PO), until my PO gave me my 1st violation for using suboxone. Then I went on methadone. I’d been prescribed benzodiazapines for years for my intense anxiety – until my PO contacted my doctor & had him abruptly take me off of them. I became severely ill (as people predictably do from benzo withdrawal), even experiencing seizures. When a friend offered me a xanax, I accepted. My PO (who’d been monitoring me carefully during my detox) tested me, & violated me for a dirty urine test.

This was only my second violation in seven years, following my release from prison. For this, my probation was revoked, & I am now serving the remaining five years of my original ten.

I have lost all. For two violations.

– Andrew Flood

I’m 20 years old. I’m currently incarcerated for trafficking, which I was doing to support my own opiate addiction.

I have never been in trouble before and even after seeking treatment and admitting I had a problem with Drugs, I was still given a 4-year sentence, which I have to serve one year and do the rest on probation.

I tried for Drug Court, because I felt I could have gained a lot from the program, but I was vetoed at the last moment by the Attorney General.

– Darrell Beauvais
MDOC# 93900
17 Mallison Falls Rd
Windham, ME 04062

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