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Correctional Corruption

Posted by Rage in the new Political Prisoner Blog: https://politicalprisoner.wordpress.com/

One of my names is Robert James Bartlett, and my Maine Department of Corrections number is 32270. I’m currently incarcerated at the Windham Maine Correctional Center, doing 17 months for violating probation on a conviction of OUI which occurred in 2004. I suffer from a mental illness, addiction and residuals from a traumatic brain injury. Here’s my groove on Corrections in the State of Maine:

While Incarcerated at Kennebec County Correctional Facility in January of 2009, I pulled one of my best friends from a shower where he hadcommitted suicide by hanging. Arthur Brian Traweek was a co-founder of the Holistic Recovery Project, and suffered from a mental illness. We were both successful graduates of the Kennebec county Co-Occurring Disorders Court Program.

Brian was only serving a 6 month sentence, but he’d been threatening suicide since his incarceration in November. While hanging from a sheet in the shower, an officer, Herreva went through our block for a check and actuallyopened the door to the shower room & seemed to look inside. (Apparently not.) After we pulled Brian out of the shower and alerted the guards, it was perhaps 8 minutes before they began performing mouth to mouth resuscitation on Brian. Why? No one could find a “separator:” a 25 cent plastic piece which rests between a victims lips and a rescuers (to prevent infection?) When they arrived, they said that he’d had a pulse. 8 minutes. Now he’s dead.

Brian had tried to commit suicide before, but with his particular illness most successful suicides are actual accidental. Brian counted on the jail to protect him. (To read the full deposition on Brian’s wrongful death, written only hours after the tragedy – click here).

What happened? There was an official police investigation. Nothing came of it. Maine State Civil Liberties Union promised to look into it, but never did.

Carol Caruthers of NAMI did stage a vigil, a candlelight vigil for Brian, right outside our window at the jail. It was attended by people who’d never visited Brian while he was alive. Neither would any of the crowd be visiting any of us who survived. We were treated to a crowd of candle-holding strangers, drinking coffee (which we couldn’t) and smoking cigarettes (which we couldn’t.)

As a fellow inmate said: “Who are these people? Brian never got any visitors when he was alive! Coffee and cigarettes? Why don’t they strippers out there too & call it good?!”

This was while we all faced showering in the same shower my friend had just hung himself in.

I have to throw in a special shout out to Carol Caruthers, who organized the worthless vigil – oh, made the paper, though, didn’t it, Carol? Carol, the executive Director of NAMI, Maine – National Association of Mentally Ill? NAMI did nothing. NAMI didn’t give a fuck. We even asked Carol over & over again to help re-open the investigation! “Please, Carol, Please!! Help us!! Read NAMI’s own reports on those of us with mental illness & addiction, killing ourselves in jail! Help us Carol!”

Carol & NAMI do not care. But they did have that nifty candlelight vigil!

Fuck you, Carol. Fuck you, NAMI.

Brian’s dead.

How many more of us will die, Carol?

Just keep cashing your checks, love.

In the System’s defense – did they ask to become, as Sheriff Randal Liberty so aptly put it recently, “the number one provider of mental health services in Maine?” No, they did not. Jails are for what? Punishment. As Bo Lozoff says, jail is “intended to punish them, pure & simple – to punish, hurt, confuse, emasculate, and eventually break their contrary spirits.” Or, as a friend of mine from Texas said to me before my most recent arrest, “Y’all got only a little over a million people in your whole one-syllable state –  how can your prisons be over-crowded?”

Jails were never designed to treat those of us with serious mental illness or addiction, any more than they were meant to treat cancer or leprosy.

What can we do to change things?

What can you do? Please – get involved. Nothing happens from within, and I guarantee you – all of the powers that be know the truth about Brian’s death, but no one will do anything to change the status quo unless we the people demand it. Call your legislator, your governor – call Carol – at NAMI, Maine. Ask her what time it is. Join the Holistic Recovery Project at http://holistix.atspace.com/wholeness.htm – we have a mailing list there too.

They incarcerate the mentally ill & the addicted, then they release them – untreated – back into your neighborhood.

If the powers that be lived in your neighborhood, perhaps more of us would be sent to rehabs & psychiatric hospitals. Perhaps there’d be money for those programs.

Only you can make it happen.

Please do. Because I guarantee – right now – some twenty-something is sitting in a cell & he’s coming off of opiates & his mental illness is causing him to believe that there’s only one way out.

(Rage has a blog: http://holistixrage.wordpress.com/)

– Rage

Originally posted at https://holistixrage.wordpress.com/2010/04/24/correctional-corruption/

 

What’s going on?

Alot’s been going on with me.  My post conviction got denied and I did not handle it well.  I allegedly got into a fight and as a result I got kicked out of the college program one semester before graduating.  Also I waved my rights as I may have charges.  For a while things were bad.

I’m better now.  But it was tough and for a little bit I spent Christmas and New Years locked down in seg like I said.  I’m better now, but extremely disappointed in myself.  It is what it is, though.  Another lesson learned.

Love,

Prince

prince

Well, Happy January.  Have you had a good January?  Last night, for chow, we had ha and potatoes, breen beans, candied sweet potatoes, apple crisp and icecream.  Plus chocolate milk.  A good meal.

It’s 2016 now.  Have you seen the new Star Wars movie?  Have you been to L.L. Beans, yet?

As for Tor Strawbetty, I inform him that he is in luck.  I am to be meeting a group of dwarven windthrowers that have a ship that can get him where he needs to go; they are delivering me a couple of crates of Bar Harbor Blueberry Ale and afterwards they are heading to the moon.  They weill take Tor as a passenger.  As for climbing the mountain, there is a small outpost near the mountain called the “Aerie” that belongs to the Shi’ar; they can get him where he wants to go.

Well, it looks like the country’s gotten a lot of snow.  Well, good night and stay healthy.

Kenneth McDonald

(Editors Note: “As for Tor Strawberry…” Kenneth plays long-distance Dungeons and Dragons with a group in southern Maine.)

kenny

 

On Dafa:

To be always truthful, compassionate, and to have tolerance in our hearts and actions, for all of God’s creations.  To do this in the face of adversity, to stick to the principle of the universe, zhen, shan, ren and is to cultivate our true character, “shing shing.”  this is what is truly correct for out truth in the nature of the cosmos!  This is cultivation!

Love,

Kosmo

Rage,

How are you?  Yes, I got the new pictures you sent.  I guess you know it put a smile on my face.

So what did you think of my first half of my blog?  AS I said, sometime this month I will write more.  When it comes down to my ministry here, I am writing sermons; I will send you one to post when I buy a new copy card.

Yes, any pictures you want to send would be okay.  So, I see that Circles are doing good.  I am glad to see that.  Yes, thank you for all of the updates.

So, did Crystal get the last letter I sent?  Yes, Mom and Cherokee told me that she lives in Westbrook with Mark.  My mom said she don’t see her anymore because she don’t go to the D&D she works at anymore.  Because my cousin don’t work there anymore.

I should be talking to Lori soon, for I will have more money on my phone account soo, for as soon as Lori puts money on my account I will end up putting some on my phone account.  I would take the time to call you , but I don’t have your phone number.  But, Hell, I know Lori should have it on her cell, but I never really asked her for it. (LOL)

I still wait to hear on my appeal.  I know it could take up to six months but I guess I am looking at it like no news is good news.  I guess that I can only pray that its that way.  (Please, God, please.)

Yes, when I get back to Maine, we’ll have to hang out, for I miss hanging out with my friends.  How are you guys doing?  I know that you guys have a lot going on for, yes, you are free, but I don’t know, though.  Even if I was out would we really be free, for hell, we are still bound by something.

I ask God to help us all, to help me when it comes to my appeal, for he is really the only one who can help.  So, I will say night for now.  I’ll write you more next week if I have the stamps.

God bless.

Pray for all.

Father Dudley

joel

Well, Rage,

I’m glad that you are feeling better.  Be careful and wear lots of warm clothing this winter.  Did you get a flu shot yet?  At the very least keep some tea and honey on hand in cse you get sick again.  It’s too bad you got evicted, at least you will be in Freeport, the home of L.L. Bean, which is open 24 hours a day, seven days a week.  Heck, you could go shop there at two or three in the morning.  All they did for us on Christmas was at chow they gave us some cake with orange frosting.

So, you named one of your cats after a crazy old woman in an old wedding dress?  Yes, Rage, I remember reading “Great Expectations” years ago and remember that character.  Which fictional character did you name the other cat after?  Well, next month is going to be Valentine’s day.  Do you have any plans for that day?  Hope you’ve got a nice place to stay in Freeport.  You know, I ust remembered a gaming company called “Green Ronin Publishing,” published a gaming book called “Freeport, City of Adventure.”  You might want to check that out.  Well, here it is, the new year and no snow, darn it.  It must be driving the skiers, snowboarders and snowplows crazy.

Kenneth McDonald

kenny

So,

Can’t wait to see you, brothers!  July 4th in the a.m.  I took a thirty day set back.  I wasn’t even able to get into court ’til, like, 18 days in, so I figured, what was another week at that point.  This time has been good for reflection.  I have to remain clean or I will end up doing the rest of this year hanging over y head.  And I would prefer not to do that.  I’ll have 8 months left when I get out.  I got to get my self locked on to the right path.  I’m ecstatic to be fully clean from suboxone.  I never realized how tough it could be coming off of it.

So, I got to the jail and a few hours later.  I look up and who do I see?  Yup.  Staci Lace!  Whore!  So Juan bailed her out.  Ha, ha, ha, because Juan has no idea what he’s in for in the long run.  I talked to her a little bit and gathered that she has trial June 16th for the stolen car.  She followed me even to jail. Ugh.

So, no Maggie, no?  We’ll track her down, my brothers.  I hope this letter finds you doing well.  I miss you and Bella terrible and I can’t wait to sees you.  I’m mailing this out on Monday night so you probably won’t get ut until Thursday, at which point I’ll be home within.. months?  I’ll get released at 9am on a Saturday.

Love you, brothers,

Kosmo

 

Well, Rage, here it is.

Well, I was in the library this Monday afternoon and read the Quoddy Tides Newspaper.  It seems that Eastport, Maine is having it’s 10th annual [irate festival .  Plus, this weekend they are having a salmon and seafood festival.  Have you ever been to either one?  They sound pretty fun.  During the pirate festival in Eastport, the Chowder House is having a Pirate Ball and a Scalawags and Wenches party.  Sounds very cool.  You know what?  I am  seriously thinking of moving up  to Eastport after I get out of here.  It does seem a rather interesting place to live.  Even if they did get ten inches of snow last year.

Got a letter from my sister this evening; she’s doing well, although she had to share the cucumbers and squash with three ravens. Have you ever heard of ravens going after vegetables?

I made another (Dungeons and Dragons) dungeon for you.  It’s a two level abandoned dwarf stronghold

Well, I have to wrap this up.  Peace be with you, Rage.

Kenneth McDonald

 

 

Hey old pals.  Hope that all is well with you guys.  Not sure if circle got my first letter, but now I have the correct address; this one will get to you guys.  Funny how life works that you meet people in not so nice places that know someone you know.  Anyway, I’m glad it was Circle, because honestly, I was just thinking about the Project.  So, I am on the vacation of a lifetime – lol – not as YCJ -York County Jail sucks.  Here until August 23rd, then out for a few months, then back for another 110 days.

Me and some men do not mix well with each other, so here I sit in time out in Pumpkin land.

How are Circles going?  Did Rage ever finish what he was writing when you guys were asking me about places in Biddeford to hold Circles at? [Dolphin refers to the historical narrative of the non-profit forms, the answer which is yes.]

I see on the news they want to close the overflow shelter at the Preb.  Makes me sad and sick at the same time that our damn governor wants to cut everything in Portland.  He is nothing but a damn bully and a disgrace.

I spend a lot of time reading in here and staying in my cell.  A lot of addicts in here hwho talk about using and it bothers me that there is no support for them in a damn county jail.  Heck, it bothers me that I am back here after doing so well on the outside.

Jail sucks.  Big time.  That, some of you know from your own experiences.

Any more front page stories for Rage?

Not much to write at this point; again, I leave her eon August 23rd, so, pretty excited about that.

Be well, be safe.  Peace and love,

Dolphin

Hey, Circle,

How are you?  I just got out of work so I though I would just write you for yes I would love to hear from you guys.  For I pray for you and all the Circles everyday, so keep in touch.  Don’t forget the free list!

May his grace be there,

Father Joel Dudley

joel

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